Well, really scary to me.
I’ve applied for a new position in hopes of changing jobs.
Risk, that’s what it is, a risk.
Just that word can elicit little tummy rolls and a small increase in my heart rate.
I don’t know that I’m comfortable taking risks.
I like my world with its comfy little discomforts.
Risk
Brings to me a sense of second guessing myself and a fear of failure.
What if they actually interview me for this job? What if I actually get this job? What if I cannot do this job? If I can, what if I’m not any good at it? What if I can’t handle it? What if the new coworkers don’t like me? What if, what if, what if
Do the what ifs ever attack you? Whew, good I was hoping I wasn’t alone here.
The what ifs drive me crazy sometimes. I would say, typically, I’m a fairly confident person…well as long as nothing big changes.
Throw a big change at me, something of a risk, and the what ifs just move right in and don’t leave until I get comfy again.
And yet…
Life without risk can be as stale as a loaf of bread left on the counter over night, open. Oh I hate when that happens or when you think the little twisty tie is on but it really isn’t…UGH! That’s a tale for another day though
There are times when I want to move forward but fear holds me back.
Well, not this time baby. This time I closed my eyes, took a nice deep breath, and jumped right in.
S-C-A-R-Y
How did she do it, you may be asking yourself if you are anything like me.
It wasn’t easy but here are the steps I walked myself through to banish those dreadful what ifs
- Make a list of why’s – why did this new thing intrigue me; why did I think I wanted this new thing; why would I be good at this…etc
- Answer those what if questions what if I actually get this job (well, I would be using my degrees in a way I am not doing now); what if I can do the job but I’m not any good at it (I have great resources in those who are leading me, I can ask for help)…etc
- Look in the mirror – positive thoughts begin in my head, so do negative ones. Step in front of the mirror, begin… I am confident, capable, reliable, and more. I am loved, supported, cared for. I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength…etc
- Talk to someone who loves you – there are a select few whom I trust to be honest with me. I spoke with them about my strengths, my weaknesses, whether they believed this was the right move for me…etc
Taking a risk and stepping out of my comfort zone can be so nerve-racking
Just Bits and Pieces 